{Take a risk, take a chance, make a change..}

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There’s always that one person you have a super complicated history with, and you may think you have had some before but then this happens and all of a sudden every Taylor Swift song makes sense.
They might be The One That Got Away or The One That Never Really Left. There is this one man that from the day we met, I knew and my gut feeling has always (and I mean always) on point when it comes to him. But thankfully, my gut loves everyone and I can use that feeling with other people too. I have that feeling with a friend of mine and a guy (which shall remain nameless for privacy and to not ruin the universe plans). That’s neither here nor there right now.

A friend of mine read this post over on Wine & Misadventures and then texted me some guy problems and long story short, they had a thing, he got a girlfriend, they broke up and now he wants to get coffee. I told her to go for it, see what happens because if she didn’t.. would he have been the one that got away? The universe opens (and closes) doors for a reason, and sometimes those doors never fully shut and sometimes they reopen. If the door reopens? Go explore it.
If you’ve missed it, during my absence I’m all about self love, and manifesting good energy into the universe and seeing what it has in store.
Okay, back to the original programming. So okay, hopefully you’re reading this screaming yassss girl in your head (or out loud, that’s cool too). So if you’re in this situation, you need to grab it by the horns and go for it. I’m not even talking about guys, I’m talking about get rid of those shitty & shady friends (we all have them!), I’m talking about the trip you’ve always wanted to go on. That job you’ve been to scared to go for. Manifest your life to what you want! Don’t be scared to do things that make you happy! Be happy, be sad, run a 10k (don’t sign me up for that!), dance it the fuck out like Meredith and Cristina. But remember my sweet sweet friends, that if you do shitty things to people karma will get you (or a psycho person you pissed off) so be good, but don’t be afraid to take chances!
and this post was supposed to be about dudes and fuck that, love yourself 🙌🏼✌🏼

[credit to the title of this post goes to my homegirl Kelly Clarkson]

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{Friday Five}

Friday Five

Seriously, are you guys loving these posts as much as I am writing them? Being midterm season: I’m making this my organization faves.

1. My Planner – there is a whole post coming up on this because I am literally obsessed.

2. Post it notes – I have a sick obsession with them. Every size, every colour, shape you name it. My all time favourite is the all adhesive ones. Game changers.

3. Sharpies – I actually don’t know who allows me into stores anymore but I am a sharpie queen. sidenote: the highlighter with the see through part, best investment.

4. Paper Mate Flair– I use these for my planner mostly but also when I need to emphasize something in my notes. Best part? Unlike most Sharpies (except the pen) they don’t bleed through and any of my stationary people will yell a Amen.

5. My iPhone 6s + – okay, I get made fun of so much for the size of this baby, but I won’t go back down in size ever again. A) I’m a huge iPhone person because it’s simple and clean plus it merges with my MacBook Pro, so so well. I mostly use this to organize lists (groceries etc) and all my blog posts. (I write 98% of them on my phone – on the go, just like all of you)!

I’ve linked all the products through my Amazon Associates account, help a broke girl out! These opinions were 100% my own and have used over and over again for years.
What are your favourite organizational products? Leave it in the comments :)

{When your week starts off on the wrong side of the bed..}

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So it’s Sunday night and it’s gonna be mid day Monday by the time this is posted (I know, I’m the worst) but I decided that it was gonna be the best week ever. Well let me say that every time something goes wrong in my life the Friends theme song plays in my head, so that’s fun.

So Monday morning rolls around, I literally stayed in bed till 7:50 because honestly, who’s gonna stop me? No one. Might have skipped my 2 hour law class (am I gonna be a lawyer, nah) and my friend on her way to get me (bless your soul) took out her mirror. So Monday was off to a rough start. She also forgot the Parking Pass. But it’s all good, I’m determined to turn this week upside down and make it my bitch.

So here’s how to have the best week ever when everything is against you:
Step One: sing that annoying lego movie theme song about having the best day ever.
Step Two: Make a tea or coffee whatever floats your boat

Step Three: look at your planner and figure out what you have to do this week

Step Four: go back to bed (JK, don’t do that)

Step Four for real: think of 7 things that are gonna make you happy this week. And you have to pick 7 cause it’s one per day.

Step five: allot your time PROPERLY, don’t overbook yourself. You do you.

Step Six: Breathe, I know your probably thinking wtf am I reading right now?? But trust me, take some deep breaths and recenter yourself.

Step Seven: let any negative thoughts go, you are what you put into the universe!

Also if you have any clutter in your house (or your dorm room) take sometime to declutter. Derek Shepherd says it’s a beautiful day to save lives and I say “it’s a beautiful day to clean your house”
Hopefully some of these tips can turn around your week :)

{Friday Five}

Friday Five

I actually think about this post all week, I get so excited!

What’s on my radar this week:

Song: Body Like A Backroad – Sam Hunt 😍😍😍

Show: I know the new season came out over Christmas, but if you are Canadian I highly highly recommend LetterKenny. You will not regret it #Ferda

Drink of choice for the weekend: Jack Daniels & ginger. “I’m a whiskey drinkin, cowboy chasing hellva time” – Brooks & Dunn (and me)

What’s in my closet: Plaid, so much plaid.

Food: I’ve had a craving for penne pasta and alfredo all damn week.

Well, till next week! I have blog posts half started coming out of my ass.

{To The Boy Who Ghosted Me..}

Personal Life

 

I hate the male population mostly the age category of 18-30. Y’all are a bunch of idiots. Okay, so being a twenty something I’m well versed in the art of online dating with apps such as Tinder and Bumble. I feel with those apps, you have an understanding going in that if it doesn’t work out one will hit you up at 3 am after months of not talking and you start the vicious cycle all over again.

But what happens to the girl when she gets ghosted after guys she’s been on and off for years? You wake up one day and all of a sudden gone, they’ve made the decision that you are no longer in their life. No text, no explanation just gone. First of all, who gave you that right to make a decision like that? Second of all, we’ve invested a lot of time in each other. Am I some horrible person?

The sad thing is, I went to group chat my frustrations and it’s so common. My friend told me it happens all the time. Like, when the fuck did this become acceptable behaviour? Do these boys (and I’m saying boys cause they sure as hell ain’t men) mothers know they act like this?

So to the boy that decided to walk away:

Do not come back. Do not text me at 3 am when you are lonely or your new girl doesn’t want you. Do not text me when your friends tell you I’ve moved on. Do not talk to me when you see me at the bar like you always do, you made the choice one day to walk away. I meant obviously nothing to you if you can make that decision at 4 am on a Saturday night for me to wake up on Sunday to you gone. You told me you loved me many times, you stood by me when I made mistakes, you didn’t judge you were just there. You told me you wanted me to be the mother of your children and we were gonna get married one day. I think thats what stings the most was you cared, or acted like you did. Did you mean those things or did you just want me cause I was convenient? It wasn’t always sunshine and rainbows, it didn’t need to be. We were just two kids from the same hometown not sure what we were doing but always found each other in the long run. A part of me always thought we’d get that ending. But now, I know I’m better off. I don’t need you, or your I love you’s or your texts. I don’t need you, just like you didn’t need me.

{Friday Five}

Friday Five

I’ve always wanted to incorporate this into my blog somehow so every Friday I’m gonna list five things that have caught my attention in the week regarding music, fashion, movies, tv, books etc

Movie: I just watched Hacksaw Ridge with my roommate, it’s a war movie directed by Mel Gibson and has Andrew Garfield and a surprising (and very well done) appearance by Vince Vaughn. 

TV: TGIT came back last week, so you damn well I’ve recorded Greys and Scandal! (I need to watch the current season of HTGAWM)

Books: You Are A Badass – Jen Sincero I’ve had this since the summer and I’ve enjoyed it so far. 

Song of the week: Rich by Maren Morris. Her whole album is amazing and on repeat but this is my current favourite. 

Blogs: even though I read A LOT of blogs in a week I’m gonna do my first FridayFive to my dear friend Wine And Misadventures who has helped and motivated me a lot over the last few months. This ones for you girl 💕

Well that’s it for this weeks round up! See ya next week


{It doesn’t hurt any less, a personal story on miscarriage}

Personal Life

 

This is a very special post; something I need to express in the only way I know how to.

Being told you are going to be a mother at a very unexpected time will shoot you through a rollercoster of emotions, I should know. I found out at the end of September I was expecting a little June baby. So many emotions went through my head. How am I going to do this? Will I be a good mom? Oh my god it has to come OUT! Are all things that crossed my mind for weeks, nothing scarier than realizing you are growing a tiny human, and while you are processing that it seems that all of a sudden you see all these people with little tiny humans and your heart explodes with joy. So while you are adjusting to the morning sickness and cravings and the exhaustion (oh my god the exhaustion) and the Pinterest boards have started, the excitement gathers and then it just stops.

I was someone who always said “I’m never having kids”, and well I was doing a pretty good job but then it happened and I struggled with it at first, but it got taken away and it wasn’t my time – which has been the most difficult thing I have ever experienced.

It’s been about 2 months since I had a miscarriage and processing it has been super difficult. It hasn’t got easier by the day and I feel like I constantly have unanswered questions and confused thoughts and a lot of self blame even though it wasn’t my fault. I remember the day. I always will. I went in on a Sunday night after having bleeding and a doctor telling me there was no ultrasound staff on hand but if he felt I needed one he would call. It was a long process, but I left still pregnant. I had to go back in at 6 am, but I woke up and I just knew and by 11:30 am I had my worst fear confirmed. I could see it in my ultrasound techs eyes, there was no baby on the screen. I had 4 ultrasounds that morning. Baby was gone. My 10 week ultrasound was scheduled to be the next day. The doctor who told me sat down like we were having bloody tea and was like “you aren’t pregnant” and sent me on my way. There’s a special place in hell for that man.
Then came the hardest part was telling people, we had told close friends and not our parents. But telling the babies father was the worst thing, it still haunts me to this day. I ended up grieving the loss of the baby, but I ended up grieving the loss of someone who was still alive and as much as we are fine now – something’s are unforgiving. My mom happened to call me the next day and I had told her everything. Took some time to myself and then just buried my feelings.
I feel like somedays I have no right to be upset because it happens all the time and I wasn’t far along but it still stings every fucking day. I’ve been incredibly private with my thoughts and feelings about loosing the baby until now. I read an article on Facebook and it was everything I’ve felt and then some towards this whole situation. People have said, if we are here to help and I reply thank you but unfortunately there isn’t much you can do and it’s true. No one can turn back time and bring me my baby back. There has been great days and some bad days and the bad days are really bad. You get sad, like really sad and it turns out that’s called Post Partum Depression and it can happen to woman who have had miscarriages. I learned that, I also learned that no one talks about it, like it’s this horrible thing (which it is) and that you’re supposed to brush it under the rug like a pile of dust and move on.
I want people know that that’s not okay. Never ever tell someone that they’ll get over it (I’ve been told this) or “you’ll have another one” yes, i understand that but you see I wanted that one. “Think of all the life you can experience now” thanks, I’m 26 I’ve lived a little. “You’re in school it’s for the better” Cool, I already have a diploma thanks for playing. “You would of had to co-parent and that would of been hard on the baby” How is this any of your concern? Both parents loved the child, sorry we weren’t forcing a relationship for the sake of a child.

If you’ve suffered through this tragedy it’s okay to:

  • Not want to get out of bed
  • Have good days
  • Shop till you drop
  • Eat that pizza
  • Drink that wine
  • Dance
  • Stay on the couch all day
  • Binge watch Netflix
  • Skip the gym

You’re entitled to heal in the way you need to, just don’t ever stop loving yourself. You are not to blame, and that’s something I struggle with everyday. Sometimes I’ll be doing everyday activities and I’ll feel happy and then I have this thought that I have no right to be happy. Somedays I’ll feel so sad, I’ll think I have no right to feel this sad. It’s a struggle to see my friends go through pregnancy and I want to be happy for them, and I am, but it sucks, cause that should be me. But it’s not, and I’m working on acceptance and falling in love with myself again, because that’s another thing they don’t tell you is you get self hatred and you need to remember that your friends and family are trying to help you in the best way they know how. Unfortunately, I can’t go back in time and get my baby back and that pain will be there for a very long time and there’s no timeframe that says when that will be, for all I know I could wake up one day and then the pain get slowly better each day. Which is what I hope for all of you who are reading this, is that you find hope and peace and know that you are not alone in this journey.

{Sayin NO more}

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I am a yes girl, I will say yes to everything because I don’t want to disappoint people. I over book myself, I run myself thin, and I just try to do it all. My friends call me “mom” (I’m 26). In today’s society we are told to say yes more, there’s multiple books on it, movies, memes, it’s a phenomenon. What about the ones who can’t say NO?
But no amount of perfectly organized planners can get you out of saying yes. I often find myself filling up my day quickly and with little room for error for being late. Actually, sitting down to write this post with no pending plans happening tonight is amazing. 
This year (the whole 16 days) of it has been my selfish year, it’s about me and my feelings and nothing else. If I’m not being the best person I can be then, I need to reevaluate. But, you’re probably thinking okay what does that have to do with saying no? I’m challenging all my yes girls and guys to say no more! “No, Becky I don’t want to go out.” “No, Bill I can’t walk your dog that day” “No, Amanda we don’t need to spilt the bill since yours was so much more than mine”. Stand up for yourself, realize that you don’t need to say yes to absolutely everything if you aren’t getting anything in return (obviously, I’m not saying don’t do anything if you aren’t getting anything in return, be a good person.) But I mean if it’s gonna drain you, cause more issues than it’s worth. SAY NO!
Make every decision with this mindset: “Will this better me in the future?” If the answer is no, say no! 
Sometimes peoples feelings maybe hurt – especially if they are used to depending on you for everything, but eventually they will get over it and if they don’t, you knew what the friendship meant to you. Don’t run yourself thin trying to help others, and it’s hard especially when you say no and you still end up doing it. 
I also keep a gratitude journal ($7.99 Micheal’s) to keep me in check daily, was I the best person I could be? Did I do things to help others WITHOUT running myself thin?
I also need to work on not feeling guilty cause I said no, and so far I’m not doing so well, I just feel so guilty. 

101 in 1001 part 2

Life, Personal Life

101pt2

 Due date: September 30th, 2019 

Personal ( /20)

  1. Learn to cook
  2. Save Money
  3. Have a financial game plan
  4. Get my licence
  5. Purchase a car (new or used)
  6. Buy and use a Kitchen Aid mixe
  7. Do 12 random acts of kindness (/12)
  8. Attend a brunch somewhere where brunch is a thing
  9. Get personalized stationary
  10. Get something for my parents that they’ve always wanted
  11. Buy my grandparents dinner
  12. Professional pictures of me
  13. Professional pictures of the family
  14. Clean up my social media-ness
  15. Buy a couch
  16. Do a “No Spend Month”
  17. Buy my first piece of Tiffany’s jewelry
  18. Buy Tory Burch flats
  19. Pay off student debt
  20. Read 10 new books

Career (/8)

  1. Land a job in public relations (social media)
  2. Buy professional clothing
  3. Start a freelancing business
  4. Land an exec job
  5. Build an empire
  6. Set up website
  7. Business cards – professional freelancing
  8. Host a PR / Blogging event

Health (  /9)

  1. Go to a spa
  2. Lose weight and get down to 135 pounds
  3. Stay in the 130-140 range
  4. Go to the gym twice a week (or more) for 4 months straight
  5. Stop biting my nails.
  6. Drink 8 glasses of water a day for a month
  7. Workout with a trainer
  8. Work on mental health
  9. Start doing yoga more regularly

Blog (/12)

  1. Guest post on another blog
  2. Get my blog featured somewhere
  3. Attend a blogging convention
  4. Outfit of the week on my blog
  5. Collaborate with a brand I love (even if its small)
  6. Publish five “How To’s” posts
  7. Photoshoots
  8. Blog Social Media pages
  9. Blog Business cards
  10. Domain name
  11. Reach 1,000 blog followers and 1,000 Instagram followers
  12. Be posting at least 3x a week by August 2018

Travel (/6)

  1. Go to New York City
  2. Christmas in New York (different from # 18)
  3. Travel to the Southern States (Texas, Tennessee, Georgia, Alabama, Louisiana, The Carolinas, Florida)
  4. Travel within Canada
  5. Travel to Ottawa
  6. Go to Mexico or Cuba or Dominican

Fun & Creative (/19)

  1. Go tailgating
  2. Complete 10 DIY projects I’ve pinned from Pinterest (2/10
  3. Go snowmobiling
  4. Write a letter to myself for my 29th birthday
  5. Buy “coffee table” books
  6. Do an Ikea furniture hack
  7. Start my Memoir (at least have the draft done)
  8. Watch 5 Audrey Hepburn Movies (1/5)
  9. Publish an e-book
  10. Take Breakfast At Tiffany’s-esque photos in front of Tiffany’s
  11. Take my brothers to a professional hockey game
  12. Host a Super Bowl party
  13. See Eric Church, Blake Shelton, Miranda Lambert or Tim McGraw live.
  14. Print off pictures and organize them by year.
  15. Boots and Hearts round 2
  16. Havelock County Jamboree
  17. Go staking
  18. Have more coffee dates with friends
  19. Go to a pumpkin patch

DISCLAIMER: I still have room for 30 or so more “tasks” however I’m young, and I’ll add when I get inspired :)

{How to make 2017 #YourYear}

Life

Let’s talk about 2017, okay. So for the most part I had a pretty crappy 2016 and you know what? I ain’t about that life. 2016 seriously got the best of me, so I’m gonna make 2017 the best of me. 

I did a 101 in 1001 a while back, and I didn’t accomplish everything on that list. I also have two major goals I’m working on from the business side of life – focusing a lot more on this blog & launching my side business all while finishing school. As well as stuff from the list I didn’t get around to doing. 

I’m making 2017 the year for me. I’m going to say no more, stay in more, realize 26 isn’t all that bad, do things for me. Get healthy and watch people go “when the hell did she get her life together”. Less hot mess, more I run a company, hi nice to meet you. I’m pledging to make 2017 as organized as my Pinterest boards. No more putting my happiness in others, I control my happiness no one else. I’m going to wake up each day and try to be the best possible person I can be in the world. Put out more positive energy in the world. Understand that everyone is going through something I don’t know about and treat them with kindness. But I’m going to make myself accountable – and do check ins. Adventure more, do things I’ve always wanted to do.

Getting your life together is exhausting, and for all those who have their lives sorted out. I applaud you. And when you start this journey you will realize a lot about yourself to find out who you really are. Tim McGraw said it best “I’m learning who you’ve been ain’t who you’ve got to be” 

One thing I want to remind of is: YOU DO NOT OWE ANYONE ANYTHING BUT YOURSELF.

So here’s to the remaining days of 2016 and here’s to the bright future 2017 & I have ahead! 
(PS: I didn’t wait till 2017, I started in the last little bit of 2016 😉)